Sunday, August 26, 2012

ONE MONTH!!! But did anything change?

   Today it has been one month since I started this blog.(Coming Clean) As of right now I have 2107 page views. Wow!! To many professional bloggers that may seem like a small number. For me that is huge and amazing. I have tried to write about what I was feeling. In my mind I have a laundry list of things I want to blog about. Organizing my ideas is definitely where I am challenged. I started out talking about the big changes that I want and need to make. My health and weight are the largest issues I'm struggling with. As I'm writing this there are papers on my desk AGAIN. So I clearly have demons yet to slay. But I have definitely started a transformation in the past month. I think this blog has helped me look inside myself. Trying to be honest with all of you is forcing me to be honest with myself. On my facebook page

 (which you can find on facebook by searching for The Happy Mom Project....shameless plug)

 I re posted this from an inspirational page I follow


I am truly trying to live by these simple rules. The name is the Happy Mom project. Because I do just want to be happy. I want to stress less, to have more fun and, to be healthier. Tomorrow my Fish starts first grade. Our schedules will start to zoom by with dance, soccer, gymnastics...the works. Before we blink it will be Halloween. I don't want to miss a moment of it. I feel like I have been running to catch up with my children's memories. Most of the time it was because of work. But a great many moments were missed because I was stuck in my own depression. So did anything really change? Absolutely! You're here, reading these words, cheering me on. And for the first time in a great many years I feel like I'm here. The me that has been lost and wandering. I still don't see her in the mirror, but she's in there. My mom has told me my whole life that anything worth having is worth fighting for.....

I AM WORTH FIGHTING FOR!

I am so grateful that you take the time to read about me and this crazy life I'm in. Tomorrow is a new adventure! So stay tuned folks, cause I'm ready to rock this! I only have 20 days left to the Mud Blast and I'm creating new goals for myself everyday. First goal of today....TURN OFF THE COMPUTER, there is far too much to get done!